The accident

I've wrote many versions of this, because I just don't know how to put the words on paper. My sweet sweet sister who I loved so much got killed by the most horrible monster in this world.
She was grilling sausages on the barbecue. I don't even know why, because we have a butler to do that stuff. But she decided she wanted to do it on her own, with no cooking skill. She didn't pay attention and the sausages caught fire. Flames came out and hit her. She ran inside screaming it out of pain. I was upstairs and as soon as I heard her scream I ran towards her. But it was too late...
She was completely black and her clothes were almost gone. She was lying there all crumbled up. The grim reaper showed up to officially end it. I tried to save her by convincing the grim reaper to not take her, but he wouldn't have it. He took my sister and I hate him so much for that. My sweet little sister is gone. Really GONE. I don't want it to be real. I just want it all to be a horrible nightmare and wake up right now, but I can't. However hard I try I can't wake up from this. It's really real. She is in a better place right now though. No more stress and worries for her. Thinking about that makes it a little more bearable, but after loosing my grandma and my mother I don't know what's gonna happen next. Are the going to take me away too? Or just my dad and Miko so I'm left all alone. No family around me just me. Maybe I'm cursed?
We put the urn with the ashes where everyone can see them. I engraved it. This is what I wrote: '
My beautiful sister, died so young. You'll be in my heart forever. Miss you sis... RIP'
I hope she knows how much a loved her. And I still love her with all my heart. I just still can't believe she is gone. I'm still not even completely over my mom dying and now my sister is dead as well.
Why is live taking those things away from me? My sister was doing so well.. She got B's in school and she was making so much money with her new job. Now it's just me and my dad left.

I haven't told anyone this yet, but my original plan was to get out and find a cute small apartment for myself to live in. Maybe even with Miko in the future. But that's all past tense now. I can't leave my dad alone with the butler? I can't do that to him. Not that the butler is awful, he was also really upset about my sisters dead, but because he lost his wife, his daughter and he can't lose his son too. Of course I would come visit a lot, but still. I'm gonna put off those plans for another year or two.

RIP